Too much

Hey all,

I have been very depressed lately. It looks like quite a few of us have been, maybe its the SAD (seasonal affective disorder). Who knows? Anyway, I have eaten too much this last couple of days. It is hard to stop once you start. I have been feeling this way mainly because of TOM and feeling sorry for myself. I have been exercising but not enough to cancel out all of the food eaten. I hope to brush myself off and start a new tomorrow. I better get back in gear or I might see a gain that I do not want to see. I was 202.2 a few days ago, I hope to stay at that or get back to that- I haven't weighed in lately- by next week. I must say that my last post was the most positive one, but had  the least amount of comments, lol. It reminds me that this is being done for me:)

Take care all...

204??

Hi everybody,

I have been out of the loop as far as blogging goes. I have been doing everything but blogging and writing my papers. So now I am blogging and guess what still needs to be done? You're right, those damn papers. I have totally lost my motivation for school but gained some in treating my body better. I cannot wait till I graduate to that I can stop feeling too stressed about class, papers, dumb teachers-who don't grade your papers on time, but oh they want you to turn in your s%^$ on time, etc.
Anyway anyone ever heard of loom knitting? It's so much fun! Faster than crocheting and great for those who cannot sew (on my life long learning list). I have made a scarf and will make more for friends and family and then move on to the other things that you can do with it.
I went on the scale and it has been 204 or 203.8. I don't know how long that will last since TOM is coming and I have been craving and caving in. And I feel so tired. Bleh. I don't get cramps but I fatigue so easily during this time. O.K. enough complaining.
I have read some folks blogs and they aren't doing so well so let's all send hugs to them...
Big hugs to Sasha and Sammy. Keep your heads up.
Now pics of things that don't have anything to do with food, weight loss, etc. Sometimes we all need a break.

My kitty loving the view.

First scarf made on the loom.

Have a great week everyone:)

205

Hi everyone,

Whoo hoo my weight was 205, 204.8, 204.2- scale is a little wacky sometimes so I use the highest weight when it acts like this. Happy to finally see some results. I am making a weight loss jar and am putting in a $1 for every pound loss. When I reach my goal weight I will spend it on something...what I don't know, but since a girl loves to shop this is great incentive. Also thinking about this hip tattoo that I said I would get when I hit 150- maybe I will wait till I reach goal and spend the money on that. That's a- ways away so I will not try to think about it too hard.
Hello new folks following the blog! Welcome and I am here for you for encouragement.
Oh and I have another big whoop. Since I have started my own version of the HSGD I have not binged.
So two days binge free for me, such a great feeling:)
I have been behind on my blog reading due to that hell called grad school, but will catch up with everybody in  the next couple of days.
Have a great night!

Sticking to it...for the most part

Hi all,

I am kind of proud of myself for the last week. My goals were as follows:

Goals for this week:
Drink 80 oz water each day
Get up a 1/2 hour earlier
Work out 6 days this week
Do not go over 450 calories on dinner, the rest of the meals 200 calories
Snack on fruits and veggies only.

I did great on the water thing until I looked so bloated I could cry.
I got up a 1/2 hour earlier, maybe 4 days this week. Has some insomnia troubles that caused me to wake up at 4:30AM a couple of times and not go back to sleep till the time I was supposed to get up, so annoying.
I worked out six days!
I didn't go over 450 calories for dinner, but I had goodies after dinner. Whoops.
I snacked on a mix of fruits, veggies and stuff that I rather not classify but it wasn't in excess like I normally do.

I decided to try those HGC drops just for kicks I guess and the minute after taking them I was so sick. I actually puked up breakfast. What the hell is in those? Did I get a bad batch?  Of course I would get a bad batch because I have such good luck;)
So I threw them away because I felt sick for hours afterwards.
I am staying on my schedule for the most part, but dodging papers that I need to write (Tumblr is much more interesting)  hopefully I get some motivation to write at least one of the two that is due this week. 
I wrote out my food schedule for the week and got most of the things needed for the recipes that I will use. This is week three for me on completing a food plan for the week, and I feel like my old organized self doing it. Let's see if I see a change in weight with it.

Goals for this week:
Drink 80 oz water each day- try this again or cover all mirrors.
Get up a 1/2 hour earlier- which means trying to go to bed earlier- Bleh
Work out 6 days this week for 45 minutes-1 hour.- my kickass playlist is helping with this
Do not go over 450 calories on dinner, the rest of the meals 200- 300 calories- food plan should help
Snack on fruits and veggies only. -Have some restraint girl! or stop baking those delicious cookies to fatten up the boyfriend with. I did use low fat alternatives, though.
Do not weigh everyday- I chose not to weigh this weekend. Will shoot for every other day.
Remember to take vitamins twice a day
Have 4 kinds of fruits or veggies a day.

Well that's all for now. I hope everyone is doing A-O.K.

I-ma-do-it-2012

Birthday blues

Yesterday was my birthday!
I woke up and hardly recognized myself. I was sooo bloated. I have been drinking tons of water but I must be retaining most of it. It kind of makes me not want to drink any more. Bleh. What a way to start the day. I worked out for an hour on the treadmill, first time in years that I did a whole hour! The time actually went by fast since I had my work out playlist ready.
I went to work and came home and had a shot or three before the boyfriend and I headed out to eat.
UM... I was terribly tipsy which it usually takes more alcohol for that. I just moved to a high altitude, so I think that's what did it. I didn't even eat at the restaurant and my boyfriend was laughing at how I was playing with my food acting like I was eating it. So I actually did not eat much that day. Can vodka shots be my new diet? Nah. I  I just wanted to check in I am still 206, today is rest day but I will probably put in an hour on the treadmill tomorrow morning. I hope by my next birthday to be much much much thinner. 120, maybe?
 Hope all is well with everyone!

A roller coaster of a morning

So I got up this morning, did my routine which includes pooping and weigh ins. Haha. --TMI and I didn't warn you before hand. I'm so cruel.-- I weighed myself and saw 208.2. WTF I was so pissed. I went ahead and had breakfast, water and my vitamins. And then I felt like I had to go. You know what I mean, so I did and lo and behold the scale reads 206! I did 3 trials- I'm such a scientist and got the same weight. How in the world did I manage that after eating? I became ecstatic and finished my meal planning for the week.
It's crazy how the number on the scale sets up how you will feel for the day. I even wrote a sad face next to my first morning weight in my journal. Then a happy one for the other weight.

Anyway, this is the first week that I am doing my schedule while school is in session. I take online classes and we are required to have web cams. I looked at myself and saw a slightly thinner face. I have seen that face before and I hope that I can keep it longer  than a year (my previous weight loss-30lbs).
I have been exercising but took two days off- was only supposed to take one day.
I planned all of my meals and went to the store to stock up on low cal food. I am going back to using I Can't believe it's not butter, turkey bacon and low fat cheese. Some of that stuff I stopped buying because A) margarine is man made and not organic. Flies wont even touch it in studies and B) the boyfriend hates margarine and turkey bacon. But we will just have to buy two kinds of food items so that we are both happy and that I can lose the weight. I was so much thinner before we moved in together. Arg...

Goals for this week:
Drink 80 oz water each day
Get up a 1/2 hour earlier
Work out 6 days this week
Do not go over 450 calories on dinner, the rest of the meals 200 calories
Snack on fruits and veggies only.

Crackers are my trigger foods, so I shouldn't be eating them as snacks. Anxiety is high since I am back in school and working. So I don't need to be reaching for trigger foods or I will demolish them.

How is everyone doing?

206.6

Hi all,

I am still doing my schedule. So far it is working and I kept it flexible enough for any bumps in the road. Like having to go to the worst PO in Colorado to pick up a very delayed Christmas gift for the boyfriend. I weighed myself today =206.6 and I am happy to see myself out of the 211ish range. TOM had me up to 215 this month :( but I am glad that is over with. I can't wait to have my weight be below 200 even on TOM. (again) I said that I would not be at 200 unless preg, but I fell so fast back to 200. Crazy. My job said that during downtime I can work on unrelated work stuf. Yah! So I can blog more often. Or do schoolwork. I rather blog.
Yesterday I jumped rope for 10 minutes and did treadmill for 30 minutes. Cal under 1200 for the day.
Today I only had time to do treadmill with weights for 30 minutes, but will probably try to squeeze some more exercise in today. Cal 500 so far. <<looks so scary from what I am used to.
It feels good to be able to eat and still lose a little weight. I recalculated my calories with ZOOM and it had me at 130 by September since I lowered how much weight I want to lose in a week. From 2.5 lbs to 2 lbs. I really miss the before intended date of July but if I want to work on my relationship with food I need to learn how to eat it and not avoid it. Not until I want to be UGW that is.
 We will see, I might change it back to 2.5 lb loss a week, since I am not sure or comfortable that I can eat that many cals on a daily basis.
I hope all is well with everyone. Stay beautiful!

Schedules, color coding and notebooks- Oh My!

Hey all,

So I actually followed my schedule for the day and I have to say I haven't felt this way in a few years. I feel so clearheaded. You see I was always an organization nutcase, but moving, school, jobs and so many other things made me lazy about it. It is so stressful when things are not in order! I was able to exercise, work, plan and make meals today, blog, join tumblr and make an exercise chart with so much time ahead still. Like I wrote before I hope to keep this up for at least a month and reflect on if I should keep going.

Here is my exercise chart

Exercise		Complete
30 minute treadmill		X
30 crunches		X
30 situps		X
1 min. wall sit		X
30 pushups		X
1 min. wall sit		X
30 jumping jacks		X X
30 toe touches 1 min. wall sit		X
It looks better on the Excel Spreadsheet trust me.  And now for some motivation: B- Toast w/banana spread- 230 L-Salad- 50 Snack- Celery with cream cheese- 54 Dinner- 3 spareribs with spinach- 350 Snack-1/2 banana-80? I am going to stick with 1090 calories a day and under. My ZOOM app says that I can be at my goal weight by June - if I keep exercising. Plus the more weight I lose the lower the calorie intake becomes, so I will have plenty of time to do SGD when I am smaller.

Happy New Year

So I wrote my new schedule out which includes an exercise schedule, work and school schedule.
I even have a menu for the week. Everything is neat and color coded. Yah :)
It took me awhile to do it all, and I hope with practice I will get faster at it. I can be quite impatient with myself.
Now I just have to follow everything. I tried to make it flexible because things do come up.

Food intake so far:
B- 1/2 cup of cottage cheese-90
     1 and 1/2 roma tomato
     1/2 pear

S- hard boiled egg- 78

L- Seafood soup- 200

D-

I am on the SGD but have added an extra 100 calories each day except for fast day.

I am trying the schedule and SGD for a month and will see how I feel after that.

I hope everyone's 2012 is great so far.

Ciao for now,